Post by Rebel40000 on Dec 21, 2007 18:31:40 GMT -5
You cannot believe how incredibly difficult this is to type up. Heck, I never thought that I'd be typing it up twice. But yeah, I'm here to say bye once more.
Why? Well, all of this shit that has been going on with the community has been pretty rough, and I of course have been centered around the majority of it. So, with all of the boards now divvied up, and the fact that a lot of my interest has really been killed, I just cannot continue being a member of this team anymore. So yeah, that's it. Go ahead and kill me, make me leave, whatever in the epilogues. Doesn't matter much to me at this point.
I want to make one thing clear, though, because I have been ghosting the Undernet and I still see people saying that what I did was a "revolt." It wasn't. For the longest time I believed that I was in fact carrying out a dream of Gary's. I heard that he wanted a MMU before he passed away, and because I had always wanted to see the community back the way it was during the S6/MM/X-Force days, I thought that perhaps I could do him one last favor by realizing his dream, which is why I promote the idea in his name instead of mine. I never came up with the idea... he did. I'm not some sort of sick, twisted freak who decides to hide behind people's names. I knew Gary, and maybe it wasn't as well as most other people, I respected him a great deal and I appreciated some of the positive feedback he gave me when I first formed Code: Island Attackers over three years ago.
I will not lie... I have been extremely bitter at C.M. Richards for a long while. There was a time, back when he first came into the community, I respected him a great deal and called him friend. But he has really changed in my eyes... too much. I don't really know the reason, and he himself may not know either but... that man is not the same man I knew three years ago. And I still believe that BoW was leading this community down a path that was far too violent. It's nice to keep that kind of stuff in AU's, but when you try bringing a full-blown war with people dying and cussing right and left into the actual continuity then things start changing for the worst. I don't think the community ever needed to be brought together under such dark terms. After all, it does end up pushing us all away, and even if you deny it yourselves, it really does happen.
I remember back when I had a convo with Regulus, Zymeth, and Enigma, about what I thought Rich was planning to do. I remember them laughing at me, saying that he lacked the power to do the things that I said. And yeah, I was more or less wrong in my assumptions. But they were wrong about one thing: Rich does have the power, and that's because everyone turns to him as a life support. Over a year ago, when I first wanted to realize Gary's dream of a MMU, everyone wanted Rich's support for the issue. When he deflated the idea, everyone decided to believe his words, as if creating a MMU was in fact impossible. I was so lost, so confused as to why one man's words meant so much to him. Why did he have such respect? All this time, from the moment he ran a hosted site with the CIA, he became some sort of celebrity as everyone in the community were seemingly drawn toward him. Yet, here I've been trying my hardest and finding myself going nowhere at all.
When Rich made the Undernet, I was so angry... I felt like the entire thing was a slap to the face, like he did it just to show that he could. He ruined the support for MMU, and then built the Undernet. How do you think it would have felt for you? I tried so hard to get over this... And then I heard that Ben (and I apologize for bringing his name up... but it needs to be said) had a falling out with Rich, because apparently he was unhappy with BoW and didn't want to participate, only to be forced to by Rai who was dangling Gary's name over his head. When I heard this, and talked to Ben myself to figure out the truth, that's when the alarms starting blaring in my ears. The community wasn't going in a good direction. Yet, no matter where I go, no one seems to care what happened to Ben, one of the oldest members of the community. Heck, I even noticed a few days ago that he was banned from the Undernet! Yet, no one says anything. No one asks "What happened?" They just don't care, yet attack everyone who supported MMU for dissing the admins of the Undernet and for using Gary's name. Isn't it ironic that we're not allowed to use Gary's name for MMU, yet Cut and Rai can use it all they want for support for BoW? I don't understand it. What is the difference?
So here is my real question: Why? That is all I want to know. Why?
I'm done ranting. Since I am technically "pioneering" Mega Man Teams United, the CIA's new forums are located there, so I will be posting there from now on. I'll still be available on AIM as well, so if you want to contact me you know how to reach me.
I really am sorry this is how things had to turn out.
Why? Well, all of this shit that has been going on with the community has been pretty rough, and I of course have been centered around the majority of it. So, with all of the boards now divvied up, and the fact that a lot of my interest has really been killed, I just cannot continue being a member of this team anymore. So yeah, that's it. Go ahead and kill me, make me leave, whatever in the epilogues. Doesn't matter much to me at this point.
I want to make one thing clear, though, because I have been ghosting the Undernet and I still see people saying that what I did was a "revolt." It wasn't. For the longest time I believed that I was in fact carrying out a dream of Gary's. I heard that he wanted a MMU before he passed away, and because I had always wanted to see the community back the way it was during the S6/MM/X-Force days, I thought that perhaps I could do him one last favor by realizing his dream, which is why I promote the idea in his name instead of mine. I never came up with the idea... he did. I'm not some sort of sick, twisted freak who decides to hide behind people's names. I knew Gary, and maybe it wasn't as well as most other people, I respected him a great deal and I appreciated some of the positive feedback he gave me when I first formed Code: Island Attackers over three years ago.
I will not lie... I have been extremely bitter at C.M. Richards for a long while. There was a time, back when he first came into the community, I respected him a great deal and called him friend. But he has really changed in my eyes... too much. I don't really know the reason, and he himself may not know either but... that man is not the same man I knew three years ago. And I still believe that BoW was leading this community down a path that was far too violent. It's nice to keep that kind of stuff in AU's, but when you try bringing a full-blown war with people dying and cussing right and left into the actual continuity then things start changing for the worst. I don't think the community ever needed to be brought together under such dark terms. After all, it does end up pushing us all away, and even if you deny it yourselves, it really does happen.
I remember back when I had a convo with Regulus, Zymeth, and Enigma, about what I thought Rich was planning to do. I remember them laughing at me, saying that he lacked the power to do the things that I said. And yeah, I was more or less wrong in my assumptions. But they were wrong about one thing: Rich does have the power, and that's because everyone turns to him as a life support. Over a year ago, when I first wanted to realize Gary's dream of a MMU, everyone wanted Rich's support for the issue. When he deflated the idea, everyone decided to believe his words, as if creating a MMU was in fact impossible. I was so lost, so confused as to why one man's words meant so much to him. Why did he have such respect? All this time, from the moment he ran a hosted site with the CIA, he became some sort of celebrity as everyone in the community were seemingly drawn toward him. Yet, here I've been trying my hardest and finding myself going nowhere at all.
When Rich made the Undernet, I was so angry... I felt like the entire thing was a slap to the face, like he did it just to show that he could. He ruined the support for MMU, and then built the Undernet. How do you think it would have felt for you? I tried so hard to get over this... And then I heard that Ben (and I apologize for bringing his name up... but it needs to be said) had a falling out with Rich, because apparently he was unhappy with BoW and didn't want to participate, only to be forced to by Rai who was dangling Gary's name over his head. When I heard this, and talked to Ben myself to figure out the truth, that's when the alarms starting blaring in my ears. The community wasn't going in a good direction. Yet, no matter where I go, no one seems to care what happened to Ben, one of the oldest members of the community. Heck, I even noticed a few days ago that he was banned from the Undernet! Yet, no one says anything. No one asks "What happened?" They just don't care, yet attack everyone who supported MMU for dissing the admins of the Undernet and for using Gary's name. Isn't it ironic that we're not allowed to use Gary's name for MMU, yet Cut and Rai can use it all they want for support for BoW? I don't understand it. What is the difference?
So here is my real question: Why? That is all I want to know. Why?
I'm done ranting. Since I am technically "pioneering" Mega Man Teams United, the CIA's new forums are located there, so I will be posting there from now on. I'll still be available on AIM as well, so if you want to contact me you know how to reach me.
I really am sorry this is how things had to turn out.
